(Text omitted) When you follow a well-prepared plan and execute it, no, you “attempt” to do so, it makes you nervous to feel that the reality veers off your initial plan little by little. In this case, you should resign yourself to reality itself.
The reason why the paintings which I previously made looked faded was due to the fact that I scribbled toward rendering the image of, “the painting I was thinking of would be like this.” In other words, it resulted from averting my eyes from the reality of my painting in which everything looked differently with every brush stroke. By switching my way of thinking to something like, “Yes, indeed, I’m traveling right now,” I discovered that I came upon a new horizon of creating my work. (Omission)
My painting changed a lot. Concentrating on reality, I became aware that oil colors weren’t suitable material for my work, where, a simplistic idea, such as, “only to draw a line on paper by pencil is enough,” is allowed. Just like traveling, my production should be part of reality as if following Mother Nature. However, I may indeed encounter a number of crossroads from now on. To continuously expose to reality my frame of consciousness, which becomes rusty and blurred in everyday life, is what my life and creating art are.